God is Good!

HOME RUN!!!

Praying for Stellan

as it seems a lot of us are. I am going through all Jennifer's emotions as she tweets. I am scared but hopeful Dr. A and his team can pull his surgery off. I am praying for wisdom and guidance for his doctors. I am praying for Jennifer and her husband for strength. I am praying for the best outcome for Stellan.

Flashback

to November 2008. The Christmas decorations were up at Disney and the girls were still wearing shorts and tank tops. I had a toothless Bug.

Panic

I received an email today from my school's financial aid office saying, "Dear, QueenMumma, our records indicate you were placed on probation for the fall 2009 semester. Your Spring 2010 check will not be disbursed until you have the requirements....etc."

My head was spinning. WHAT?!? What did I do!?! How do you get put on probation? It's Friday and the financial office is closed on Fridays and Monday is our holiday, there's no school. I have to wait until Tuesday until I can go into the office to find out what's going on.

For twelve crazy minutes I was trying to figure out how I could have been place on financial aid probation when I received another email saying to please disregard the previous email and sorry for the inconvenience. PHEW!!!!!! I would be worrying the next four days as to what I did.

I. am. so. relieved.

This beautiful little girl

is just so, so amazing.


She is blossoming every single day.




She wants to learn everything. She wants to know how to read NOW. I started teaching her the sounds of letters.


She is a sponge. The world is a playground that she plays everyday.


As I write this post, we are snuggled together.


Her eyelashes perfectly curled. Her lips beautifully pursed.


She is amazing and she's growing up before my eyes.

Nothing to really say

or maybe it's just so much to say that I don't know where to begin? That I'm so overwhelmed on a daily basis? Or no time?

I still have all my stories in my head. All my Cheese-isms. They just never leave my head anymore. I always feel like like I'm >< close to drowning, always swimming upstream. Schoolwork, laundry, daily routines, appointments.

My sister went back to work last week but then was back in urgent care last night. This, we are told, all stemmed from H1N1. Now, there is no way to confirm this as she wasn't tested during the time when test results would have been yielded. She has been sleeping in her own bed for 3 nights now. She is slowly getting better. She needs aggressive acid reflux meds along with steroids and breathing treatments to keep everything at bay. She is weaning off prednisone.

The girls had a surgery follow up yesterday. Cheese is still constipated and needs extra help. The girls are both still taking acid reflux meds but I was given the okay to start to wean Bug. They are still not cleared for normal activity until January. Their next appointment will be in four months.

Bug had issues with a bully at school. A little girls was physically harming her and in her own words was "torturing" her. Her teacher did not take me seriously when I first emailed her. I then showed up in the classroom after I procured a babysitter for Cheese. The teacher refused to change her seat for 3 more days, saying the whole class would be changing seats at the end of October.

I emailed the teacher that night as Bug's seat needed to be changed. She didn't deserve to be bullied 3 more days. I asked the teacher for a plan of action and I told her if I wasn't satisfied that I would be taking my concerns to the principal. Her seat was changed the next day and the teacher took the matter herself to the principal.

I feel guilty I had to get harsh with the teacher, but the soft approach wasn't working. Bug is much more relaxed and in a safer learning environment since she no longer is being bullied.

As it turned out, her class did not change seats 3 days later. In fact, seats still haven't been changed.

This is Halloween, This is Halloween

Sister Update

No more choking episodes!!! She is very slowly getting better. She is still doing 'round the clock breathing treatments, still on steroids and humidifier is still going all the time. She is still having to sleep straight up in the recliner chair in the living room. I am mostly sleeping on the couch. Cheese figures out I'm not in bed at some point during the night and crawls on the couch with me.

We don't know when my sister will be able to sleep laying down. Two nights last week I slept in my bed because I needed to. I needed uninterrupted sleep. Those two nights my sister didn't sleep because I wasn't there with her. The trauma and fear is raw. The thought of her throat closing up on her again never leaves our minds.

We are blessed in that my sister has a friend visiting from out of town and she offered to sleep on our couch the next three nights. I get three whole nights in my bed! How nice of her friend.

Studying hard

I have a 5-7 min informative speech to give today. Trying to memorize. I came down with a cold last night. Cheese is sick. My sister is on her way to the hospital right now for an upper endoscopy.

Short post. Must study.

Sunday

The last day has gone smoothly without incident. I slept on the couch last night. My sister doesn't seem to be having coughing fits as much. Maybe the new acid reflux regimen is making a difference? Like I said, I will still drive her straight to the ER if her throat closes up again. Her last episode happened Friday.

In other news, my mom was keeping the girls in her room with her while my sister and I slept in the living room this morning. In Cheese's eagerness to say good morning to me she was running to me when her foot caught a kitchen chair. She fell and hit her head. She now has a nice blue bruise on her forehead. While holding and consoling her, I realized how hot she felt on top of me. Her fever was 101.2. We gave her motrin and her fever is down to 100.3. The motrin perked her up.

I worked on my speech yesterday but was nodding off from lack of sleep. I finally gave up and took a nap. I was hoping to have had it finished already and be memorizing. I've only got about a third of it written. I haven't touched math or anatomy yet.

I am feeling so discouraged and overwhelmed. Cheese has a field trip to a pumpkin patch tomorrow with her preschool class. The rule of thumb is to be fever free for 24hrs in order to attend school. This would mean she would miss her field trip tomorrow. That is a big deal to her at 4yrs old. She's been talking about it non-stop counting down the days. I had planned on meeting my mom and her there during my 2 hour class break tomorrow.

I know I'm a Debbie Downer by now but I think any little thing is going to set me over the edge. Thanks for the support and prayers.

I am so, so thankful I did not have to work this weekend. I am thankful I can have uninterrupted time with my family. I am thankful I got to stay in my pjs all day yesterday. I will most likely do the same today.